a plethora of pregnancies

Good golly Miss Molly!  Lots of pregnant women around lately!  Jolie has been posting on facebook about her morning sickness, which makes me grateful for two things, one: that I never actually threw up with any of my pregnancies, and two: that I will never be pregnant again!  At work today I almost literally ran into the pregnant girl who works downstairs as I was going into the bathroom, looking at her belly (she's due like any minute), I remembered some of the discomforts of the later stages of pregnancy and was again very grateful that I will not be doing that again!

I do enjoy babies, but I have finally reached that stage of life where I am perfectly happy to play with other people's babies!  So Jolie, when that baby arrives I'll be over for hot chocolate and a baby fix!  And dearest Melissa, you really need to come back to Idaho so Peter can be with his favorite auntie!

Being Single

I've begun to see the advantages of singleness....I read an article the other day that expressed it very well. Here's a quote:

You know what is really easy? Being single. Yes, there are some things you have to deal with as a single person: loneliness, independence, no children, lack of physical affection, the whole eternal salvation question . . . but these issues aside, I have mastered the art of being single. It is not hard.

In fact, it is way easier than dating. I know what I want. I know what I need to do and how I want to be dealt with on any given night. I know what TV shows I want to watch and which I want to record on my DVR. I don’t ever have to wonder about my feelings or if I need to me more sensitive to myself or if I need to spend more time showing myself how I feel about myself.

And click here  for the whole article, in case you're interested.


I was talking to a friend yesterday about this, she just got married after being single for about 2 years.  She was saying that it's an adjustment to be married again.  I think I might have a hard time adjusting to marriage too.  I feel like I was living like a single person in many ways for most of my 20 year marriage because Tom didn't want to do anything for so long that I started just doing whatever I wanted and left him home on the couch.  I would like to be married again though, there are things I miss...I've probably said this before, but the first thing that comes to mind is having someone to warm my cold toes in bed at night!  Tom used to just LOVE that...and if you believe that I've got some oceanfront property in Idaho to sell ya...

Letting go

I took Grandma to the temple again today, but she's not as well as she used to be so lately we just go to the cafeteria and have lunch.  On the way we passed the Denning's Furnitupe store.  She asked me what "furnitupe" is.  I explained that part of the R broke off leaving what looks like a P.  She said, "oh, I was worried".  I laughed and told her she could relax now that she knows what it is.  A moment later she said "this is me relaxing" I looked over and she was holding her arms up by her face. I laughed and she laughed too.  I'm gonna miss her when she's gone!  Further down the road she said, "cows sent ya?" and then she laughed again...I thought she was being a little crazy until I remembered that there's a Chik fil A billboard right about where she made that comment.  She's still pretty sharp at times, other times you can see her fading away.  Today she told me that she thinks a part fell out and pointed at her head.  I asked her what she was going to do about it and she looked a little confused so I suggested just letting it go, and she agreed.

We had lunch in the cafeteria and visited with several friends. Cindy works in the cafeteria and asked that we come in on June 9th, the day before Grandma's birthday, to have cake.  She asked the cook to put carrot cake on the schedule for that day because it's Grandma's favorite.  Grandma asked several people to pray that she lives another month so she can be there.

Sometimes letting go is hard. 

Yellowstone with the Dunphy's

Last night I dreamed that I was in a 1920's touring car, kind of like this:

With this happy couple on their anniversary:

Perfectly normal, right?  In my dream Phil was driving, Claire was in the backseat and I was in the passenger seat.  We were driving through Yellowstone and started down a hill toward a stop sign.  Phil tried to shift down but couldn't do it for some reason...apparently he didn't know how to use the brakes either (you know how dreams are).  So I grabbed the gear shifter and asked him if he had the clutch in...nope...that would be why he was having trouble shifting.  So we got the car stopped just as a fire broke out at the back of it. Claire found a fire extinguisher under the back seat and put the fire out.  Hurray!  And then I woke up. 

The funny part of this story is that I haven't even watched Modern Family in weeks!  Anyway, I do love the show...it cracks me up! 

a person of faith

Lately I've met a couple of people who, as part of conversation have told me that they are "a person of faith".  I like it. They didn't say what church, if any, they were affiliated with. They got straight to the important stuff.  I may have to try it out myself sometime.  You know how sometimes you can tell that a person REALLY wants to know if you are a member of the same church they are?  And you know it's because they really don't like people who aren't?  I kind of like to withhold the information, just to torture them a little. Is that wrong?  Next time I think I'll just tell them I'm a person of faith.  Let them put that in their pipe and smoke it!

getting my sea legs

So...I have been single now for a little over 2 months, and it feels a little weird.  I think it's kind of like getting your sea legs...you know, when you first get on the boat you feel unsteady and like you might fall down at any moment, but after you do it for awhile it feels totally normal.  Although, actually, I think it's more like getting your land legs back again.  My marriage was the time on the boat and now that I'm off I'm getting back to normal. It still feels a bit weird but I think soon I'll feel comfortable again.

So, there's a short post to let you know I'm still here!

a new beginning

I have been absent for a while, and I am now officially divorced.  The last time I posted about this it was still kind of raw and emotional.  However, on January 3rd I filed the papers and immediately felt as if a huge weight had been lifted from my shoulders, I felt light and happy!  It wasn't all easy, but for the most part it has been a positive experience.  I know Tom feels quite differently about it, but we are after all on different sides of the experience.  The divorce was final on February 6th, but I didn't receive the paperwork until the 8th.  I had wondered if I would feel sad when I learned it was final, but the irrepressible grin that spread across my face answered my own question.  I am so happy to feel free!  I didn't realize just how weighted down I was.  I have been divorced for almost a week now and so far it feels good.  I miss having a man to snuggle up to when I get cold during the night, and especially when I first crawl into bed and my toes are frozen...but I'm getting used to it.  The biggest change I think is yet to come...it'll be going to single adult activities!  Yikes!